My First Two Bottom Experiences-The Agony and The Ecstasy

I did not accept my sexuality for many years and in some ways I still deny it. I have not come out,although recently I have confided in several close friends.Some were surprised and two of them,asked "Why did it take so long?' Out of the many people I know,only a handful are aware. Two of those friends I informed,via a Facebook message. It seemed easier that way,as they live interstate and it was less brave than doing face to face.

It is for some of us a very difficult decision.We are the same people,but as my straight friends put it,'If they lie about that,what else are they lying about,we cannot trust them." I haven't told him.

That gives some context.

As a result of this, I had a secret but very fulfilling relationship with Steve,who gave me my first blow job. He taught me many things but we did not have penetrative sex.This relationship was private.

When I moved to Melbourne,I thus denied it had ever happened and again lived the pretext that I was a straight man,not gay.

I did,however,on numerous occasions feel very horny and I fought my urges.Particularly, after I had been drinking

One night I had been drinking and I walked home,along the Yarra River when an older guy approached me and gestured for me to go into the bushes and trees along the track.I was hesitant,but I suspected that this would either be very dangerous or very exciting. He unzipped his jeans and pulled his dick out.I fell to my knees and began to devour his cock,as I had learned to do with Steve.I could feel it growing inside my mouth,when he stood up and told me he wanted to fuck me.I couldn't believe it was happening right there and then.

I had fantasised about this,so I dropped my pants there and bent over,not knowing what to expect.He put his cock into me,and I experienced searing pain as he forced it in. It felt tome like it was burning.At that point,I said no more and he stopped.He did not force me or assault me and stopped when I asked. There had been no foreplay or lube and protection involved. It was potentially dangerous and it hurt.

I was naive though,and the expectation did not live up to the actual deed.

It did put me off the thought of anal intercourse though,and I thought that I was a top.

Several years had passed and I became frequent visitor to Melbourne's saunas.It was here I could meet lots of guys and have sex in an anonymous environment.It was here that I met Andre.He was versatile and wanted one night to fuck me.

I was reticent,because of my past experience. He was patient and understanding. He kissed me and touched me,kissing my mouth,my neck and shoulders. He felt a very sensitive spot and the pleasure went through my body.He then turned me over,and to my surprise,he then rimmed me,probing my hole with his tongue and then gently probed with his finger.

He then got up,lubed his fingers and my arse,before applying a condom. He told me to sit on him,explaining that by doing this, I was in control of the pace and depth and could stop any time.
I rode him,and yes,it did hurt,but then I experienced pleasure I had never felt before.

He fucked me a second time and told me that lube and relaxation are most important.That was my second fuck and it contrasted enormously to the first,which had put me off.

Andre opened a new world up to me,from which I have never gone back. I am now a bottom and find the pleasure amazing. The moral is guys,take your time,use plenty of lube and relax. A trusting and gentle partner makes all the difference.

Now, I am happy to take any cock,of any size,or shape,and in many different positions,hard and deep,slow or quick,provided I have had time to relax first with a trusted partner.